unapologetically girly

It's been awhile.

It's true, I haven't been doing much on lj for a long time. It isn't holding my attention the way it used to. By that I mean my own posts, not anyone else's. But I'll still update sometimes. And I still read my friends list on a regular basis and make comments, so don't delete me! Just because I'm not updating as much doesn't mean I'm not still around.

I'm at Dr. Kurt's, the office where I work on Thursdays. Today is my last day. My schedule at Tricoci changed, which is a good thing because I have better days, but I'm feeling a need to have my three days off again. 13 hrs on Tuesday + 10 hrs on Saturday + two other 7 hr shifts + Chicago Esthetics on Thursdays = a frazzled Jess. But I think I'll be less frazzled if I have my extra day off again.

Whenever I'm stalled for things to write about (like now) I usually just make a list of random things. So...

1. I might leave early today. Like at 4 when I'm supposed to be here till 6. Last week I left at 5. But hell, it's my last day so why not?

2. My cousin is going to the Peace Corps in January for two years. Very proud of her! I don't know very much about the Peace Corps, so it'll be fun for me to hear her stories and become a little more educated about it. It's definitely something I couldn't do, since I don't think I'd be able to handle it in the least. I'd get the hell back home right after seeing my first really big bug. It's girly, I know, but hologram_golem's middle brother felt the same way when his girlfriend joined the Peace Corps, so I don't feel too bad.

3. I've been coming to terms with my girliness recently. I've always been a feminist, my mom raised me that way, but the older I get, the girlier I seem to get. I love wearing skirts. I'm starting to wear heels. I knit. I fear spiders. I would suck at the Peace Corps. I've decided to embrace my girliness. I think everything about a person comes down to choice, and just because I like wearing mary janes and lipstick doesn't mean I'd look down on a girl who only wears pants and hates makeup. Back when I was a wee little punk grrrl, I'd wear baggy pants and t-shirts, and when I grew out of that and started wearing clothes that were darker, tighter and more form-fitting I suddenly felt much more comfortable and confident.

4. That said, lately I've been feeling stronger than I've ever felt. My job is very physical. I do a pretty intense massage on people every day. Between that and the little yoga/push ups/sit ups routine I do in the morning, I've been noticing my arms getting much more toned. I would still suck at the Peace Corps, but maybe not as much as a year ago.

5. hologram_golem and I are trying to pick a date for our annual birthday party. We're thinking August 26th. Stay tuned...

6. I'm really loving my new short hair. It's so much easier to style, and it always looks good. With long hair, when you have a frizzy bad hair day, there's not much you can do about it. With short hair I can just run a little water in it, and it's fine. I still have the red streaks and will freshen them up before going on vacation next week, then maybe I'll just dye it all black again. Red is cute, but it fades so fast and I'm lazy with upkeeping that sort of thing. But after having really long hair for such a long time, I feel like an old school Victorian who finally succumbed to the new haircut that all the flappers are getting.

Yes, I think I'm going to leave early today. This was fun. Maybe I'll start doing this on a semi-regular basis again.